“Oh, it’s perfectly fine to cut off one of his arms, then, is it Zhaan?!”
A recording is found that reveals Aeryn to not only have been aboard Moya before but to have taken part in the execution of her first pilot. It’s angst, regret, and anger all around, and a really fantastic character episode. As usual, Claudia Black does a fantastic job, and Pilot himself is as real and alive as any of the non-puppet characters.
This is another episode that contributed to my never, ever trusting Crais. Yes, Aeryn killed a pilot under orders, but Crais is the one who gave those orders—with apparent malice and zero remorse. He was an “insane military commander” even before his brother was killed. Yes, his brother’s death screwed him up, but we see here that ruthlessness lurked in him even during his regular duties. Am I judging Crais more harshly than Aeryn? I suppose that’s open to debate.
This episode also gives a deeper understanding of Pilot; how desperate he was to be bonded to a leviathan and the guilt he’s been hiding since that bonding. His anger at Aeryn is at least partially transferred self-loathing for his part in the first pilot’s death and the torture Moya underwent so she would accept him. He’d never mentioned the pain, and likely accepted it previously as penance for his own crimes.
It’s interesting that, in the entire course of the series, no one ever brings up the question of whether or not Pilot has an actual name, or if he’d even like one. It would have been nice if someone had asked him, and this would have been one of the best opportunities for it.
“And you say you think you love this man?”
Pilot says he’ll have less control for a while. I don’t remember if that ever had any actual effect.
I felt bad for Pilot being wrapped up in the cargo bay like that.
 “Chop off an arm and all he can muster is a few snotty remarks…”